So far I’ve had no morning sickness and thank the lord for this as I don’t know how I would have coped. Every pregnant woman I’ve spoken to that has had morning sickness has said it was awful. However, I have had terrible spouts of nausea along with a bitter taste in my mouth making me constantly wanting to eat! eat! eat! I’m always thinking something terrible might go wrong as well. I feel like my anxiety is taking over me. As much as I want to enjoy this experience I can’t because I constantly worry. My counsellor sets me tasks to complete every week as well as providing me with coping mechanisms which I find hard to do as I worry all the time. So what I do instead is read about coping with anxiety because completing tasks is not something I’m in the right frame of mind to do.
I visited the hospital again for another scan I was feeling really anxious my husband told me to try and not worry we have god on our side but I was so scared. I kept thinking something was wrong the doctor would tell me bad news. I really tried to think positive but it wasn’t working. I got to hear my babies heartbeat I can not begin to tell you how relieved I was when the doctor said everything was ok with both babies. I felt like a huge weight had lifted off my shoulders. My husband was really excited to hear this as well as see them on the scan. I wish I could enjoy this experience just like he was but my anxiety was taking over. One twin measured bigger than the other on the scan but the doctor said it’s nothing to worry about – clearly we know who is eating all the food. I have named them twin A and B for now no official names yet I don’t even know the genders.